LONG POST! Don't read if you don't feel like it k. 'Cause it may just bore you to death lawl
1. Yay I think we'll be getting Ninja Gaiden 2 and Rock Band!!! Hahahahaha Ryu Hayabusa, we will meet again ;) and I so wanna be the drummer and crash the drums. wakakaka. TIME TO SAVE MONEY! ;D and of course laaaa, need to save money for other stuffs. ^.^ yak~
2. The feeling of dissatisfied-ness (no such word right. lol) when something is not achieved after long hours of working feverishly for it is absolutely uncalled for. IN LAYMAN TERMS, working hard for something = still cannot achieve what you want ---- is bullshit. Where's the logic behind that huh. haha =/
See... I've been working hard and slogging my guts out to/for what? TO achieve what I want and FOR the rewards at the end of it. But somehow somehowww, the outcome(s) of it are so agonising and traumatising that I'm afraid and feel embarassed to live my chin up high and face reality. Face it, the lives that all of us lead are harsh and cruel. "Justice has long arms" (or something like that -.-)? yeah right hahaa.
After years and years of observation (finally T.T), I've finally know the REAL hidden meaning behind "never say die; don't give up". Ridiculous isn't it... to say there's 'hidden meaning' behind it? heh. But in any case, I found out that I've done a lot of "giving ups" on not only myself, but also on school, cca and friends. Perhaps THIS is the ripe time to ditch that old bad habit and start anew.
So Jannah, don't give up. If you ever feel like losing it and giving up on yourself/studies, remember to grab and hold on to the faith and hope that family and cousins (chey!! haha) have placed in you ^_^ AND visualise the sweet,happy ending of the whole hysterical rollercoaster ride at the end of it.
YA I'M MOTIVATING MYSELF YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?
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The battle has already started (ok fake. it started since sec 1 actually. haha) and it's up to me to determine the verdict at the end :)
let's all cast aside the friends and boyfriend, for now hahahahaha (what the hell.) _
you want my sympathy, i hear? good! i'll throw it in your face now! remember to catch it! (SHOWS F*CK FACE)