i hate the fact that you are waiting for the right moment to strike.
- Wednesday, May 28, 2008 / 2:25 PM.
The purpose of me going to school is totally g.o.n.e.
Like where's the purpose when things "taught" in class refuse to even get diffused into the brain!
My mind is tired. My body is tired. Extremely exhausted, both physically and mentally. I'll never be active anymore, even with ample rest.
I feel that I rot a lot in school. It's like a goddamn routine y'see. - wake up, bathe, breakfast, outz- reach school, stone, assemble- lessons, double stone, lessons, triple stone- home ya.
It's a-might-as-well I stay at home. It's better to relax at home and do my own things instead of having stoning sessions in school. It's boring. I feel bored...
I feel friends are all like so busy with their own stuffs nowadays.
To tell you the truth, I'm even scared to talk to them. To ask them to accompany me go here and there. haha I sound like a loser right. I feel like a fxcken small child. Meh that's not the point. It's just that... I don't know who they are anymore and that's a very sad thing don't you think so.
IN EVEN-BETTER CASES, there are some who treat me like a (insert word). What a bunch of scumbags. heh. Nowadays I've been hanging around people aimlessly. I don't even know what's my aim when I'm there. Haha all I ever did is to just shrug and say don't-know. Or walk away.
Sleeping in class is never a good way to shut myself out from the world, I realised. lol
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I'm always in dilemmas... I'm always in states of denial...
I feel sick, don't you guys feel sick too?.??.???.
I know we're inseparable.