Realization's A (Female Dog)
- Wednesday, April 16, 2008 / 4:27 PM.
dumb photo lol lol haha lol
everyone's out and cats are sleeping. i've no one to talk to (since i abandoned my phone eons ago. hehehee) and msn is useless. therefore, the best thing to do now is to "talk" to my blog.
many things are going through my mind now.
like how i can't manage my time well and how i hate myself for being a phoney.
i miss my old me. i miss old me, being the one who doesn't care about what others think or do, who speaks through my hat all the time, who don't spill secrets to others, who...
but now............ maybe things have changed for the better, if not for the worst.
i mind a lot what other people think and say. it's not even my business but?
i no longer have the liberty to speak openly. (so to speak.) whatever i say, the words bound to hurt some others. andddd i'm a bad secret-keeper. i can keep things under wraps actually but i know i'll spill the beans to other random people after a few weeks. tsk
nowadays i just have this feeling to be all hypocritical.
idon'tknowwhy, i just feel like being a dissembler is nice. haha
so now i'm stuck in a conundrum (as in difficult problem/dilemma)
i've no idea what my future holds for me. everything look so unconfirmed.
how to have it confirmed then?? crap
i'm slackinggggg againnnnnn.
i'm hating myself for not being able to have the drive to do work and revision. sigh.
oh gosh i hate people making querulous comments. shuddup ok, shuddup. you people are what? trying to burst my eardrums ah.
and lastly, i tend to get antsy easily.
HAHAHAHAHAH
SORRY FOR THE BORING POST! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHA
"anything that isn't won from open play does not justify a proper win"